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A Message: Haunting Truths
I feel like my anger has penetrated everything in my life. So, let me try this. Hi, I’m Janet. I was raised in a family of 4. Mom and Dad still married. Dad was physically there. Not connected emotionally. Just sat after a long days work. My siblings were older than me. I had two…
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Reddit – regarding mental health & Laestadianism
Per a post on Reddit: (felt like this person was in my head…. Truly) Mental Health is a current issue in sermons and discussions Some of the reasons ministers drag their children and their relatives children into this generational quagmire are mentioned in this article. A consistently controlling environment, especially during childhood, can lead to…
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What Was I Like, Before (and after)?
I was supposed to graduate in the mid 90’s. By 1989, I had been diagnosed by my physician as having major depression. I didn’t particularly like my life. I was shuttled to doctors appointments regularly. In town and to Wisconsin to see a specialist every year. I had learning difficulties. I couldn’t understand math. What…
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When I Look Inward…
… What I see is someone that is terrified. And generally successful. In my own way. I wrote a friend from childhood a letter. She appreciated it, from what she told me. And I’m grateful. While I’m a person with the use of words, to an exhausting extent… It’s not because I just woke up…
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What I Tell Myself….
I’ve largely not spoken about.. To some extent… How PTSD impacted me. I could be wrong. Just in case I’m not, here goes. I’m terrified of conflict. I will avoid at all costs. I hate loud/sudden sounds. And I work in manufacturing… Oof. I’m always thinking that no one (including my husband) would want me.…
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PTSD – Floor Jansen
This song is from Floor Jansen’s first solo album. It’s a powerful anthem discussing PTSD. While I enjoy her style better in Nightwish, she’s an incredible talent.
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Emotions – Anxiety + 10
I think it’s fair to say that there are expectations. Expectations for manners, behaviors, attitudes, driving, well.. living. One thing that I can say is that my anxiety has driven me to worry about everything. Last Thursday, I was so angry when I got home from work. One of my sewing coworkers was on vacation…
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Thoughts of a Child to an Adult. The RSV Edition.
So… here I am. Sitting in my kitchen at the island. The island that I own. The husband that sits upstairs working on his crafting. The dogs resting comfortably on the couch. The dishwasher running in the background. The beauty of the environment outside. And the relative peace that exists in my life among the…
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Purpose and Goal
My purpose for putting together this blog was for me to sort out my feelings – about… why? Why do all these people seem to have such amazing lives. Their makeup, their clothes, their jobs/careers, homes/apartments/condos, children, cars…. (or any combination of these). They are perfect. Their pictures on social media with the hashtags and…
Learning about Me 