PTSD, My Life, My Changes

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  • Thoughts of a Child to an Adult. The RSV Edition.

    So… here I am. Sitting in my kitchen at the island. The island that I own. The husband that sits upstairs working on his crafting. The dogs resting comfortably on the couch. The dishwasher running in the background. The beauty of the environment outside. And the relative peace that exists in my life among the…

  • Purpose and Goal

    My purpose for putting together this blog was for me to sort out my feelings – about… why? Why do all these people seem to have such amazing lives. Their makeup, their clothes, their jobs/careers, homes/apartments/condos, children, cars…. (or any combination of these). They are perfect. Their pictures on social media with the hashtags and…

  • Weekend & Holiday Anxieties/Depression

    I wish I could say that depression didn’t have a hold on me. I’m not looking for attention, I’m exhausted. My husband and his mounting medical needs and unemployment for 10+ years and me getting older, more stressed, and tired. Holidays mean I get to spend time with family. Maybe not the way it used…

  • I’m Trying to Remember My Life

    There are times where I feel insignificant. I think that is pretty much most of the time. I think it’s safe to say that I disappeared when I was 14 to about 18 years old. My mom became medically unavailable in my Freshman year of High School. Looking at the National Institute of Mental Health…

  • I’m remembering…

    I asked my husband tonight. Am I worthy of respect? He looks at me and says, of course. Do you feel like you deserve respect? My response: maybe a little. He was kind of surprised. I never ever thought I had thought even a morsel of me deserved respect. I was treated very well by…

  • I’m a Darlene

    You know how some people compare themselves to the sex in the city series? Well, I’m more obese and definitely as skeptical. (Roseanne/ The Conners) I’ve been watching the series since its inception. I’ve watched those kids grow up when I was a kid. I wanted to have the pain in the ass yet complicated…

  • When Mommy’s and Daddy’s …..

    love each other…. a woman will feel a deep and soulful connection to each other. They will caress, breathe heavily and in your ear, they will then whisper … okay, this is your week. And then the penis sldes into … well… I went a little far with that. Sorry…. So, Once Upon a Time…

  • Negaunee, Michigan May 24-26, 2024

    This is me. I’m 40 something years old. I’ve lived a life that … well, kind of sucks and is kind of enchanted. I’ve loved. I’ve lost. I’ve gained. I’ve learned. And most of all (and most importantly), I’m learning to move on. That picture was just taken today while I was on Lake Michigan…

  • I Might Be My Age

    The last few weeks have been rough. Well, the last……. lots of years have been tough. I can honestly say that I haven’t participated much. Sure, I’ve worked. I’ve worked hard. I’ve done work at home. I’ve been trying to be more present. In my relationships and in my world. I’ve tried to realize what…

  • Coming Together

    There’s a lot to say for the tough stuff in life. You can put a cherry on top, if you’re so inclined. I didn’t have that ability. After the interview, I’ve taken on a few things. My responsibilities may change soon, a bit. I’m not sure. I’ve examined what I want and don’t want in…