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Reddit – regarding mental health & Laestadianism
Per a post on Reddit: (felt like this person was in my head…. Truly) Mental Health is a current issue in sermons and discussions Some of the reasons ministers drag their children and their relatives children into this generational quagmire are mentioned in this article. A consistently controlling environment, especially during childhood, can lead to…
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To My Core
I think after I stopped seeing my last therapist and the fuckery with Ashleigh was discovered, I broke a bit. Again. I do think that this time might be different. I have needed to come to a realization that I’m worth so much more. I’m worth being outside. Participating in life. Buying myself little things.…
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Something feels different
I feel my life is changing, just a bit. I’m still laying in my dark bedroom, just before bed, discussing my inner thoughts. I had a very tough beginning to my weekend. I got some distressing news about my daughter and the company she keeps. I made a decision, finally. I have to let go.…
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I am okay to be me
Something I wrote yesterday: I’d like to share it. I am okay to be me Whoever I declare “me” to be Fraud to you, friend to me My life may not exactly look like yours Equality A hope, a dream If I am like creator, of creator – How can I be disavowed by man?…
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What Was I Like, Before (and after)?
I was supposed to graduate in the mid 90’s. By 1989, I had been diagnosed by my physician as having major depression. I didn’t particularly like my life. I was shuttled to doctors appointments regularly. In town and to Wisconsin to see a specialist every year. I had learning difficulties. I couldn’t understand math. What…
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When I Look Inward…
… What I see is someone that is terrified. And generally successful. In my own way. I wrote a friend from childhood a letter. She appreciated it, from what she told me. And I’m grateful. While I’m a person with the use of words, to an exhausting extent… It’s not because I just woke up…
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No one ever asks for this
It’s true. I never imagined myself feeling like I was going to be a 15 year old until … Probably, now? (guess how old I actually am? Hint: I’m a few decades from 15 years old.) I have been living my life feeling like I’ve had to defend myself. For making bad decisions. For disappointing…
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What I Tell Myself….
I’ve largely not spoken about.. To some extent… How PTSD impacted me. I could be wrong. Just in case I’m not, here goes. I’m terrified of conflict. I will avoid at all costs. I hate loud/sudden sounds. And I work in manufacturing… Oof. I’m always thinking that no one (including my husband) would want me.…
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Saying Goodbye, Saying Hello.. (Again)
I have been trying to evaluate things. My life. What’s important to me. Who I am, exactly. I came to a deep reflection today about myself. I’m not living my life. I’m living my life remembering bad things and relating them to experiences in my current life. I don’t see things around me and I…
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