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Resilience for an Upcoming New Year
Let’s be honest with ourselves, this year has been challenging since the Covid-19 virus began. None of us are quite unchanged from the process. We all know who we are. For me, nothing is farther from the truth. I’ve spent a lifetime feeling like no one really knew who I was. Or even rationale behind…
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Sometimes
Sometimes it’s hard to imagine that I’m grown up. I pictured myself at this age being so much more put together. And in many ways, I’m as imperfect as everyone else. I work hard, I have thoughts I think are absolutely right and everyone else’s opinions are ridiculous if they don’t match my own, I…
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Mom, Covid-19, Quarantine, and an ungrateful daughter
I fashion myself after someone relatively high maintenance with low maintenance goals. I’m high maintenance because psychologically, I know I’m unwell. I need validation more than a frequent visitor to a commercial parking facility. I’m still trying to build myself up when I have perceptions that life is trying to tear me down. Lately I’ve…
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Electronic Distractions
I find myself increasingly involved in electronic distractions. Instead of involving myself in things that adults should do, I play cell phone and tablet games. Then when all that fails, ps4 Diablo 3. I’ve beat the game … 3 times now and am playing segments in Torment 1 mode. I feel like as part of…
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Man, I need a Break!
I cannot begin to remember what I posted last, but I can honestly tell you so much has happened. The story is this: My daughter Ashleigh’s ex-boyfriend, Cody asked to talk to me. He and Ashleigh had a child together, Benjamin. Benjamin was in Children’s Hospital and had two different heart surgeries, was born premature,…
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Life IS Full of Surprises
I left one of my jobs in a bad way, many years ago. I wanted to tell my hotel boss this when I eventually sit down for my annual review. I suffered, badly. My ex husband was at this point in time a horrible father. He’d sleep, keep the doorknobs to the bedrooms tied together…
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Introduction – Ashleigh
This one is a hard post. So I will do my best to be objective. This is my daughter Ashleigh. She was born February 10 @ 4:30 pm by c-section. She was hard coming into this world, and hard living as a child. She was taken by c-section because the doctor wasn’t sure whether she…
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Holy Shit! My Blog Disappeared!
Once upon a time, I had a blog. A blog under the name psychosisrus. I spent YEARS on that blog. Yes, years. And then, one day I got tired of being harassed by my eldest daughter (something to discuss later… ish) and I deleted my email address. The email address associated with my blog. And…
PTSD, My Life, My Changes 