Category: Changing

  • The Cranberries (Band, Not Fruit)

    When I was a teenager, I discovered The Cranberries. Just like many American people, I fell in love. The sound, the beautiful sound. Oh my word, it was as if I found an angel singing through my radio. I spent countless hours singing with Dolores O’Riordan on the radio or on my electronic devices. That…

  • Victimization Review

    Victimization Review

    I believe that it’s really difficult to change a mind set. I was a victim, but now I’m a survivor. There are still times where I revert back into victim mode. Poor me, look at how I suffered. Instead of making circumstances in my life to define me, I’m walking a better truth. Despite all…

  • Sometimes

    Sometimes

    Sometimes it’s hard to imagine that I’m grown up. I pictured myself at this age being so much more put together. And in many ways, I’m as imperfect as everyone else. I work hard, I have thoughts I think are absolutely right and everyone else’s opinions are ridiculous if they don’t match my own, I…

  • Mom, Covid-19, Quarantine, and an ungrateful daughter

    Mom, Covid-19, Quarantine, and an ungrateful daughter

    I fashion myself after someone relatively high maintenance with low maintenance goals. I’m high maintenance because psychologically, I know I’m unwell. I need validation more than a frequent visitor to a commercial parking facility. I’m still trying to build myself up when I have perceptions that life is trying to tear me down. Lately I’ve…

  • Electronic Distractions

    I find myself increasingly involved in electronic distractions. Instead of involving myself in things that adults should do, I play cell phone and tablet games. Then when all that fails, ps4 Diablo 3. I’ve beat the game … 3 times now and am playing segments in Torment 1 mode. I feel like as part of…

  • Man, I need a Break!

    I cannot begin to remember what I posted last, but I can honestly tell you so much has happened. The story is this: My daughter Ashleigh’s ex-boyfriend, Cody asked to talk to me. He and Ashleigh had a child together, Benjamin. Benjamin was in Children’s Hospital and had two different heart surgeries, was born premature,…

  • May 26th, 2020 … 43 Years Old – Who Knew?

    So, on May 4th, 2020 (Yes, May the 4th be with you… hur hur) I started part time (30 hours per week approx) at American Tent to supplement my income that I’d lost at Aloft. My primary employer for the last three years to this point. I’ve been working in a warehouse carrying, cutting, preparing…

  • Life IS Full of Surprises

    I left one of my jobs in a bad way, many years ago. I wanted to tell my hotel boss this when I eventually sit down for my annual review. I suffered, badly. My ex husband was at this point in time a horrible father. He’d sleep, keep the doorknobs to the bedrooms tied together…

  • Introduction to Me