Learning about Me

I just had to stop seeing my therapist through my employee assistance program. For a program that is offered through my employee, I was blessed! I’ve worked for larger companies (by far) and gotten less personal, less personalized care and consideration for my stress and life. I was beyond impressed. I will miss her. (My…

I’m really struggling every day. I go to work before the sun rises. I get to work and do my job without issue. Hardly anyone speaks to me during the day. I feel like I’m sitting in my bedroom as a 15 year old kid. Mind you, I’m not easy into consideration. First off, what…

I’m starting brainspotting therapy on the 22nd of this month. It’s very different from cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT). If you read this, look it up if you’re interested. It’s specifically for people that have had trauma in their background and have developed PTSD/C-PTSD. I’m looking forward to starting. Although I have to allow myself to…

…. If you knew as much as you profess to, you’d give me a hug. Tell me you love me and accept me. Instead of a fucking lecture.

I feel like my anger has penetrated everything in my life. So, let me try this. Hi, I’m Janet. I was raised in a family of 4. Mom and Dad still married. Dad was physically there. Not connected emotionally. Just sat after a long days work. My siblings were older than me. I had two…